Sixteen is an awkward age to begin with, but being separated from a new crush is unbearable. Because I am a romantic at heart, and I remember what sixteen felt like, I drove Aurie, who is like my daughter, to Victoria TX. It was a time for me to work and her to play. When I picked her up, she was sporting a new bracelet with the word "love" on it. It has been so long since I have been able to care for her or do much of anything for her. I remember when she was a small girl, following me around, wanting to do everything I did. Now she is free-spirited and independent. I miss that little girl.
Being with her made me realize that I have missed so much in all my travels. Sure, I have experienced so many different things that I will cherish forever, but I have also missed out on some one-time opportunities as well. I have changed since returning to Texas. I seem to have lost some of my wanderlust. I am still adventurous. I do not think anyone could beat that out of me. But now I want to share those adventures will the people I love. I guess I miss having a family.
Who knew I would miss something like that - me, the traveler and confirmed bachelorette? Well, I enjoyed this weekend very much, and I am looking forward to Zach's return as well. Maybe there is still a nuclear family in the cards for me. Only time and a little faith will tell.
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