Thursday, May 26, 2011

"Don't let your life pass you by"

What do I want? I have been asked this many times today. I want the cultures to show less white blood cells.

The results came back to confirm high leukocytes or leukocytosis. Now it is just a matter of narrowing it down. Complete CBC for me. WBC > 20,000 at the moment. 4,000-10,800 normal.

Not going to stress. Have some arms to keep me safe. What's the point really? It is what it is. As my dad said the other day, "it is not in my hands."

Just going to keep moving on, day to day, loving fiercely. Making-love every day. Sharing my dreams and desires with a wonderful man who loves me honestly. He does not hide it. He does not hide anything from me. Sometimes it hurts, what he shares, but it also makes our relationship stronger. I admire that about him. His open heart.

Spend more time with my kid, taking him to baseball, teaching him to ride his bike, helping him be a good friend, letting him know he is loved. Leaving a legacy in the heart of a child - I cannot think of anything more profound or important. He has already changed my life for the better.

Maybe love is the cure.

Feeling this at the moment. Listen

3 comments:

  1. I will never, ever hear even one note of this song or SM's amazing voice without thinking of you belting it out with me as we made our way through the mountains one deep and endless night . . .

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  2. That was a GREAT trip. Miles and miles of dreams shared and futures planned. So Louise, you think we can make that gap?

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