Tomorrow I have to meet with Zach's school about the incident last week. We will see what happens there.
I had a date on Friday night with a guy I met at the "pond" near my house where I run almost every night. He has an adorable dog. He is very athletic and handsome as anything. Dinner at Baha and after dinner coffee. He was funny and charming. He asked for a second date, and I said that I just don't want to date at all really. He said he understood. I did get to smile a good deal, and some of it wasn't forced. I just want some friends; that's all. I told Max (short for Maximilian) that, and he seemed to think he could try being just friends. He said he did not have too many female friends. "At least none he had not slept with," he chuckled. I liked his candor and felt he was being truthful. He took me home on his motorcycle (cool) and gave me a hug. It was not a long hug, which meant he understood about my boundaries, or at least I think so. A friend of mine once said that you could tell a good deal about a person's intentions based on how long someone hugged you. We shall see.
The rest of the weekend was spent with my brother's family. They wanted a day to themselves (my brother and his wife) so Sunday, I ran one nephew to his baseball tournament, watched his team lose in a painful 14-3 massacre while playing with my four year old nephew and his friends on the bleachers. Overall, it was a relaxing weekend as Zach was with some friends of his as well.
As my ducks start to line up again in my life, I feel like I am beginning to have some control again, as much as that is possible. Maybe when you've got everything the way you think it should be, God shakes it up a little, scattering the pieces of your life to the far ends of the Earth, until the pieces find their way back, one at a time, edging back into place slowly, carefully. No matter what, I know that I am a stronger, even kinder person today than I was a year ago. I have an even bigger, loving heart than I have had in my whole life. Sharing your heart and your love with someone makes all the difference.
Unconditional love, regardless of the source, is an amazing and healing thing.
I had a date on Friday night with a guy I met at the "pond" near my house where I run almost every night. He has an adorable dog. He is very athletic and handsome as anything. Dinner at Baha and after dinner coffee. He was funny and charming. He asked for a second date, and I said that I just don't want to date at all really. He said he understood. I did get to smile a good deal, and some of it wasn't forced. I just want some friends; that's all. I told Max (short for Maximilian) that, and he seemed to think he could try being just friends. He said he did not have too many female friends. "At least none he had not slept with," he chuckled. I liked his candor and felt he was being truthful. He took me home on his motorcycle (cool) and gave me a hug. It was not a long hug, which meant he understood about my boundaries, or at least I think so. A friend of mine once said that you could tell a good deal about a person's intentions based on how long someone hugged you. We shall see.
The rest of the weekend was spent with my brother's family. They wanted a day to themselves (my brother and his wife) so Sunday, I ran one nephew to his baseball tournament, watched his team lose in a painful 14-3 massacre while playing with my four year old nephew and his friends on the bleachers. Overall, it was a relaxing weekend as Zach was with some friends of his as well.As my ducks start to line up again in my life, I feel like I am beginning to have some control again, as much as that is possible. Maybe when you've got everything the way you think it should be, God shakes it up a little, scattering the pieces of your life to the far ends of the Earth, until the pieces find their way back, one at a time, edging back into place slowly, carefully. No matter what, I know that I am a stronger, even kinder person today than I was a year ago. I have an even bigger, loving heart than I have had in my whole life. Sharing your heart and your love with someone makes all the difference.
Unconditional love, regardless of the source, is an amazing and healing thing.
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