Give It Up

Man what a beautiful day! I left this morning with a long list of "to dos." It's summer, and I am a size 6; therefore, I refuse to cover every inch of my body because I hate the "out of shape" way I look. I have done it my whole life for the most part, but it is too hot and sunny to do it anymore. I struck out today with the mentality that I was not trying to impress anyone, so I should be able to dress as I please. I felt exposed and unkempt because it was windy, and my hair was all over the place. In a nutshell, I got more positive male attention today than I have in the last few weeks, except when I wore my workout clothes. It made me feel good and even peppier than normal. I practically skipped around today.

Not to mention my fabulously, steamy, sexy dream from last night. I really want to go into detail, but I know it will make many of you blush. I went decades without orgasms or decent sex for that matter. I thought that orgasms were some elusive, made up, wishful thinking of the Betty Friedan era. You know, women wanting equality in the bedroom as well as the workplace, wink, wink.

Why all the frigid restrain from women, even today. I have been told that I am unusual as I can have an orgasm in every way possible, and for this I am G-R-A-T-E-F-U-L! I also think is has a good deal to do with your partner and the mutual attraction. If the tension and passion aren't there, or if you don't find your partner attractive, then there could be some misfires for sure.

I remember when I was twenty, I was engaged to Paul. He was a nice enough guy, editor of the college newspaper, transferring to a university outside of Austin. He was older and wiser. He was everything to me. He was my first boyfriend ever. I was not allowed to date in high school. In any case, Paul never hit the mark. I just thought I was a bad lay. I broke up with him because he wanted me to have too many babies. I am not sure how that ever would have happened knowing what I now know about rocket-charged-oh-baby-don't-stop-put-you-in-a-blissful-coma-sex. Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh