Just what's on my mind.

Got a great guy who wants to do things for me, who would do practically anything for me, and I continue to say that I can do whatever it is. I just don't want to add to his load. I can't bring myself to just allow him to be him.

Zach is trying his hand at being one among many.  He is struggling but trying hard. I have to try and maintain my objectivity when he starts to get selfish or bossy. I can't expect him to change in a few months. He has done the best with Corbin and Ethan. Two good boys, raised with some Texas-style discipline, who know the meaning of the word respect.

Really want to get my gun. I want to go to the firing range with my brother. I want to become proficient with a weapon where I could defend my home if ever it should arise. Plus, I kinda dig them. There is something very empowering about shooting a gun. Can't explain it. I will take any suggestions for a hand gun. I thought it through and that is the way I am going. I am going to teach Zach about the gun and safety as well.

Excited to get started on remodel. Waiting for bids. Of course, I just now emailed one of the vendors with some choices, and I still need a counter top. It is hard making decisions when there is not really anything tangible to look at. That's why I am depending on the expertise of my contractor. He is a little bit designer and a little bit rock n roll. I give him what I think I want, and then he tells me what I Really Want. He keeps me focused on the bottom line. Still, I am waiting for my cousin to show up and settle everything. I dislike confrontation.