Today is a hard day for some reason. I feel out of sorts. It could be that all of my stressors are overwhelming me at the moment, or it could be because I want to share some things with someone, and I continue to keep them inside my brain. When people who you think love you learn about what you've been through, they seem to move away, become distant and disappear, or that has been my experience. It would really explain so much to a few if I was able to share my whole story or at least as much as I can remember at this moment.
I wanted to make some red velvet cupcakes, but I could not, and still cannot, find my large mixing bowls. I do not know why, but this inability to locate these innocuous items sent me into a bit of a tailspin. Everything that is overflowing my already crowded plate seemed to slide right off, like I were holding a porterhouse steak on a flimsy, cheap paper plate. There, on the floor, were all my concerns, worries and responsibilities, splattered all over the concrete on the kitchen floor.
I just need to get it all out. If those who love me, one in particular, walks away, then that's how it will have to be. Either way, I cannot keep holding it in. What if I can't find the mixer next?
I wanted to make some red velvet cupcakes, but I could not, and still cannot, find my large mixing bowls. I do not know why, but this inability to locate these innocuous items sent me into a bit of a tailspin. Everything that is overflowing my already crowded plate seemed to slide right off, like I were holding a porterhouse steak on a flimsy, cheap paper plate. There, on the floor, were all my concerns, worries and responsibilities, splattered all over the concrete on the kitchen floor.
I just need to get it all out. If those who love me, one in particular, walks away, then that's how it will have to be. Either way, I cannot keep holding it in. What if I can't find the mixer next?
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